this week has been unreal. hard but soo so good.
ill start with the hard...there is no other way to describe my feelings here then the word humbled. i seriously thought i was on top of the world when i left...but then i got here, cant speak any spanish, cant communicate my feelings, and on top of that i dont know like any doctrine haha. yesterday i was seriously struggling with this. but i just said a prayer that i would have an answer of why i am here and how i can be better. cause like 20 times here i have questioned why i am speaking spanish. i cant say anything!!! i was outside doing personal study and we have these teachers here that help us during that time. and this stud of a guy who served in ecuador came over and just sat by me...hermano anorga. and somehow in broken spanish we talked a bit. he asked me what i was doing and i said im reading preach my gospel from cover to cover cause i havent even read this book and i am supposed to be teaching it to others. i was just frustrated with myself for not preparing better. and he gave me the best lesson about doctrine and principles. he said doctrines are truths that dont change and principles are truths that we can do or change if that makes sense. and then he asked about laws. and we talked about commandments. then he said i know you are here for the principle. he said you have so much love to give the people and that is so much better then being on a mission because its a law or because you think it is what you are supposed to do. he said you can know all the doctrine but with no love you will be an awful missionary. and even if you have just a little doctrine and tons of love you will be amazing. it was so cool and i felt so much better.
okay the good part of the ccm is though is that i seriously dont think i have laughed harder in my life. i have yet to be sick but i am sick with giggles. like not kidding 24 7. my teachers tell me to focus like 5 times a day and i am focused im just laughing the whole time. its cause the things people do here are so funny and i think they are only funny cause im stuck in this box called the mtc and cant get out so everything just becomes hilarious. for example. we have this elder, elder roos. and bless his heart he is the sweetest guy. cant speak one word of spanish though i pray for him every night. but our district leader was asking if we could wear flip flops to play volleyball during activity time and elder roos goes umm i dont wear flip flops...my mom tried to buy them for me and i was like mom i dont wear no thongs. oh my gosh i seriously spit out my water. i was on the floor laughing. stuff like that happens everyday. its the tender mercies up in here haha.
my comps...okay hermana jameson is a life saver. she is seriously the tightest girl ever. we get along sooooo well. i love her to death. my other comp. hermana saenz i kinda wanna punch sometimes because im pretty sure she is here to flirt with boys. i wanna die. she is always late and not focused and it sucks cause me and jameson will be killin our lessons and then she is not on the same page. i know i need to be patient but its hard. im so glad i have jameson though.
so saturday was nuts. we have been here 10 days and we went proselyting in lima for 5 hours. just me and my comps and we had a teacher go with us. so we just knocked tons of doors and intercoms and said our shpeel that we memorized in espanol and then she would take over once we had no idea what was going on. but we got in two doors and gave a sweet lesson and the people asked me to pray both times!!! i was freaking out. but it went well!! my prayers are super repetative cause i have no vocab but honestly spanish is rough but i am starting to do good with it and put sentences together on my own. we taught a 20 min lesson last night with no notes. thats whats up.
but this guy we taught jose on sat was so cool. he said he felt peace and you could tell he was just ready for the gospel.
i got this sweet quote from this girl here about why pres hinckley said girls need missions. he said that they are being prepared to be mothers of gods army. its a super sick quote so look it up. i feel like this time is definately not mine and i owe it to the lord and to my future fam to just kill it out here.
life is real good though.
thats all for this week.
peace and love everyone. work hard play hard pray hard
karl
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